Evenson. Jakira. Forever. Ever.

My "photography" skills, aren't the best.......

Beautiful Boy.

This was suppose to be one of my creative pieces for my college applications.....

♥

His eyes of brown - oak brown, and within them I can see the fire of love lit up & sending me a sensation of passion, running through me.
Eyes of a beautiful boy.

And though physically, he's attractive in ways my own eyes don't even understand.. it isn't his physicality that attract me.

It's his own hearts his mind, his touch.. that makes him beautiful. It's how he makes me feel, that feeling of never wanting to let this good thing go unnoticed. He's my good thing - he's my everything.. he is my beautiful boy.

-EJB♥




Finish Later..

The (Un)Usual #@!%$.

Not your regular ; )

....

How `bout we just move over , And just do it where we at
How `bout you just lift that skirt up
Ohh . . . We can be bad

That place that ain’t been touched , I’m feeling on it
I’ll let you sit through, keep spinning on it
Girl . . . Giddy Up Giddy Up , Take me on a ride to ecstasy

You don’t wanna bump bump then take a nap
You just wanna bump bump bring right back
Watch me
I’ma heat it up , beat it up
ohhh

[Chorus]
I know you’re tired of the usual, usual, usual
I can give you more than the usual
Not your regular , Tell you what , Let me touch

You gon’ feel something unusual, unusual, unusual
I’m not gon’ do what the usual,
Not your regular, Tell you what , Let me touch
You gon’ feel something unusual

[Verse 2]
I wanna do the wicked things you never do
What if we get it while your friends was in the room
Is that too hot for ya ?
Don’t you feel bad, Let em feel sexy

We can make a sex room wherever we go
Take it to the restroom, they ain’t gotta know
No . . Ohh . .

Watch me heat it up, Beat it up
Woo .. Hey!
Do You hear me girl ?
Watch me heat it up, Beat it up
Woo

[Chorus]

That’s the run (Check)
Cinema (Check)
On the hood (Check)
Of The Car (Check)
On the top (Check)
On the beach

[Drake]
This that other shit
You know you ask for it
I might just save you some money , And getcha passport
So You can come to me city , I’ll take you all over
And Hit you on the balcony , Just don’t fall over
Send me a picture baby , you know I’d never leak it

I know you got something recent , For someone decent
Why you laughing out loud , I’m serious
Bring your girl if you a little bi-curious
Please ; Please No Storytelling of others
I promise you gon’ love it
I would never let you down
Feel like I might of perfected , All the things that you’ve expected
And you gon’ know it when you bring your ass around
Motherfu- Oh!

I can give you more than the "usual" ♥

HistoryVsHerstory.

Still Writing This one...

Thankyou. Thankyou. Thankyou.

♥



Everybody needs inspiration,
Everbody needs a song.
A beautiful melody,
When the night's so long.
Cause there is no guarantee,
That this life is easy.

Yeah when my world is falling apart.
When there's no light to break up the dark,
That's when I, I, I look at you.
When the waves are flooding the shore,
and I can't find my way home anymore.
That's when I, I, I look at you.

When I look at you,
I see forgiveness,
I see the truth.
You love me for who I am,
Like the stars hold the moon,
Right there where they belong.
and I know im not alone.

Yeah when my world is falling apart,
When there's no light to break up the dark,
That's when I, I, I look at you.
When the waves are flooding the shore,
and I can't find my way home anymore,
That's when I, I, I look at you.

You, appear just like a dream to me.
Just like kaleidoscope colors,
That cover me,
All I need,
Every breath that I breathe,
Don't you know you're beautiful!

Yeah

When the waves are flooding the shore,
and I can't find my way home anymore,
That's when I, I, I look at you.
I look at you, Yeah, Woah.

You, appear just like a dream to me.

2257.
♥

9810.

JaylenExavier.
Belongs To: Jakira.
Stuffed w. love By: Evenson jr.



" I promise to love you & give you a home.."
-BuildaBear.

E.

EJB.

You're my everything, honestly. That's exactly what you are too me and that's how much you mean to me.

You're always there, always & undoubtedly. And as long as you're in my life - I don't have much to worry about. Because even when you make me angry, sad, or confused, at the end of every day you make me a better me. And no matter what has happened in the last three years, we always came back to each other. You & I were standing right in front of each other, all along. And I have you now and you have me, something I never wanna lose. You could be the best thing that has ever happened to me & I want to live that feeling with you, forever. You're my better half, my other half and my exact match - we're not opposite, not at all. We connect on levels of lust, love, physical and emotional. I've never worked so hard for something in my life. And that's how I know, you're the one for me & I don't really know what I'd do without you - I probably wouldn't be able to stand on my own two feet.

So here's to us...

Here's to our friendship in which we set on fire, burning of lust and passion.
Here's to you meeting my mother in the hallway, and falling in love. All in the same day.
To silent fights & loud arguments. To bittersweet sorry's & hands over pride.
Here's to September-December, the worst of it all. To February forward, the best.
To stair well dinners, and lunches, and dare I say it -- Sex.
To my beauty pageants in New York & business trips in Florida, leaving you missing me in Boston. Here's to us, and our aggression to love.
To DaddyMommyJaylenShortythis&ShortythattoShortyPop&Otherhalfs.
To the wings we metaphorically relate to, that ensure us that no matter how far apart we are, we're always just a heartbeat away.
Here's to three years of dedication, a date in which we promise to celebrate every 25th of every month.
The days that were not perfect, far from actually. To the morning where a simple text with a silly face, would beg for forgiveness. Here's to the negatives that made our positives happen, into a beautiful picture we cherish today.
Here's to today, tomorrow and forever.
Here's to my name on yours.
Here's to me. Here's to you. Here's to us.

We grow each day, to make our tomorrow stronger.
- J.

So I'm saying...

There's a lot I've been meaning to put on here. But no time, patience, or dare I say it.. passion to do so.
ShakeMyHead.








I'm outtttt :-*

Everybody See's it's You. . .

Everybody see's it's you
I'm the one that lost the view
Everybody says we're through
I hope you haven't said it too

So where
Do we go from here
With all this fear in our eyes
And where
Can love take us now
We've been so far down
We can still touch the sky


If we crawl
Till we can walk again
Then we'll run
Until we're strong enough to jump
Then we'll fly
Until there is no end
So lets crawl, crawl, crawl
Back to love, Yeah
Back to love, Yeah

Why did I change the pace
Hearts were never meant to race
I always felt the need for space
But now I can't reach your face
So where
Are you standing now
Are you in the crowd of my faults
Love, can you see my hand?
I need one more chance
We can still have it all


If we crawl
Till we can walk again
Then we'll run
Until we're strong enough to jump
Then we'll fly
Until there is no end
So lets crawl, crawl, crawl


Everybody see's it's you
Well I never wanna lose that view


So we'll crawl
Till we can walk again
Then we'll run
Until we're strong enough to jump
Then we'll fly
Until there is no end
So lets crawl, crawl, crawl

So we'll crawl
Till we can walk again
Then we'll run
Until we're strong enough to jump
Then we'll fly
Until there is no end
So let's crawl, let's crawl, lets crawl
Back to love
Back to love,

Back to love. . . . . ♥

'Till the day that I die.

We fight.
We argue.
You stay, then you leave.

You hang up.
And then, there's tears...





But when the tears dry up, and the arguments over,
you're right back to being my solider ♥
You come back.
....thankyou, EB.

"But no longer will I fear our future, because we're making h i s t o r y . . . . ♥ "

Maybe You'll Stay. Maybe You'll Leave.

Girl Im in love with you
This ain't the honeymoon
Past the infatuation phase
Right in the thick of love
At times we get sick of love
It seems like we argue everyday

♥

I know i misbehaved
And you made your mistakes
And we both still got room left to grow
And though love sometimes hurts
I still put you first
And we'll make this thing work
But I think we should take it s l o w . . .


We're just ordinary people
We don't know which way to go
Cuz we're ordinary people
Maybe we should take it slow,
This time we'll take it slow
This time we'll take it slow

This ain't a movie no
No fairy tale conclusion ya'll
It gets more confusing everyday
Sometimes it's heaven sent
Then we head back to hell again
We kiss and we make up on the way... ♥


I hang up you call
We rise and we fall
And we feel like just walking away
As our love advances
We take second chances
Though it's not a fantasy
I Still want you to stay



We're just ordinary people
We don't know which way to go
Cuz we're ordinary people
Maybe we should take it slow (Take it slow oh oh ohh)
This time we'll take it slow (Take it slow oh oh ohh)
This time we'll take it slow


Take it slow
Maybe we'll live and learn
Maybe we'll crash and burn
Maybe you'll stay, maybe you'll leave,
maybe you'll return
Maybe another fight
Maybe we won't survive
But maybe we'll grow
We never know baby youuuu and I


We're just ordinary people
We don't know which way to go
Cuz we're ordinary people
Maybe we should take it slow
We're just ordinary people
We don't know which way to go
Cuz we're ordinary people
Maybe we should take it slow
This time we'll take it slow
This time we'll take it slow
....

...we're just ordinary people,
Take. It. Slow.
EJB ^

Something like a throwback,

I wrote this back in June, when the relationship I am in now was at it's height of being a complete frustrated waste of time. Or so I thought.

When I came across this blog post just a few minutes and read it in it's full, I have realized that it's almost been a year since I felt the way I did, then. But it's comical because lately, I have been this way almost, 50%. Day by day questioning the existence of what I have now, to what I wanted back then..

"We Were Never Meant to be Baby, We just.. happened?"
-June 2009.


My heart's on fire. Explicit content.

This ones for you, and you know who you are. Whether you read this or not, I'm talking directly to you. Call this my confession. Everything I have ever wanted to say to you, is being posted here, for the whoever to see, the world, your eyes, my eyes, theirs eyes. & I promise to be completely honest with you, & myself... Let your eyes listen, take a deep breath, & now, LETITOUTT.

To say that ' I love you. ' is an understatement, because there's no words to reflect, or even express in enough passion. I'm out there; emotionally Emotionally & willingly open, all for you. I would do anything for you, anything in this world with you, & only you, it's honestly an unbelievable feeling, that I have never felt.

" I'm a mess right now. Out of order, I'm torn up, I'm going down.
Won't you hold me together, I'm pouring out.
I need you, that's how I feel." -KERIHILSON.

I have put you on a pedestal, & there I kept you, there you stayed. I never took you down, ever. Even when you would make me cry, hurt my feelings, or just say something stupid. You just, sat there. I cared about your feelings, more than I ever cared about mine, as long as you were happy. I always put you first, because you were MY first. My first love, my first heartbreak, pickmeup, relationship. I gave you my absolute everything & in return, you came up short. Nothing. What we have or had, will never compare to something genuine. But maybe it's just me, & my false hope, because I feel as though being a couple, really makes two people one. Why don't I feel like that with you ? What I'm looking for in a relationship, is something you're not giving me. And I'm currently falling in & out of love with you, & then I'll always come back.

"Tell me have you ever been in a situation, where the best thing you could do, was the hardest thing you've ever done? But you tried to do what's right. And I know deep down inside, that I really want be there by your side, but I can't stand to see you cry, Not when it's because of me.." -JaggedEdge.

I need to let this go, us go, & you go. I need to realize that we're living in a mess two years in the process of creating that we are no longer able to clean up. We, need to realize it's far past ' making it work. ' when it's more like, ' Letting this go.' But it's not giving up, it's giving in to the truth. It's obvious that I will miss you, more than anything, that I have ever missed in my life with every part of me. I shouldn 't even have to say it. I love you to death, but it's your love that is emotionally killing me. I'm not saying that we had to be perfect, but damn we should of tried, & when we didn't, we fell apart. It hurts to say, I guess I couldn't of held you down, ride or died, because that was a promise that I had made to you from the jump. A side of me can't see myself without you, or us ever breaking up, & the other side knows, this wasn't meant to be.

" Sure everyone has their problems. That's a given.
This isn't what we was wanting, How we're living.
But let's take this good enough & turn it to great.
This can only be as good as we both make it, but sometimes it's gunna hurt.
We can be as happy as we want to be, boy. But we gotta make it work." -Neyo *


Eb* , you'll always have my heart, or at least be apart of it. I'm going to have those days where all I want to do is call you, to bother you. And hear you laugh with me, about something so small, or so stupid, talk to you until we fall asleep, or you fall asleep, or my phone dies. I'm going to miss your ways, and how you piss me off. I'm going to miss our problems, & complaining about them. I'm going to miss how you'd randomly tell me you love me, & then laugh afterward. Missing your calls, to calling you back, & waiting for you to call wicked late at night. I'm going to miss knowing I had someone. I going to miss the idea of 'us', terribly. I'm going to always wear your ' E. ' necklace, everyday, just because. And then I'm going to eventually learn from our mistakes.
Like all good things, we must come to an end. Like, the end of high school, and how those 'perfect moments' don't last forever, & they eventually come to an end, yeah. But as promised, LoveAlways.


... It feels SO good, to let this all out. Even if you're just a stranger reading this, not knowing a damn thing about my situation, or this situation in general. Whether you can relate, it feels good. And it'll feel even better, If I knew, that somewhere the one this is dedicated to, was reading this, that his eyes were following my every word in rhythm.
Farewell, to my sunshine. To my rainy days, and my rainbows. To us, & my best friend.

Time don't go back, it goes forward,
At one point in time, this is what we wanted.

More Than Love.

His chick Bad, badder than your's.

"Her swagga don't stop, her body won't quit, So fool pipe down, you ain't talkin' bout shit.."

No super glue can fix this shit.

Mariah, I was in the million dolla meetings he was cheating
All up in the church,he was sneakin with the deacon
Cats away,well the mice will play.
Lol smiley face have a nicer day.
Cuz pop pop pop it goes my rubberband
So stop stop stop sniffin that contraband
Cuz you was penny pinchin my accounts laced
Attention! About face!


I thought we had something special, we had something good
But I should'n let another mechanic under my hood
If you see me walking by ya boy, don't you even speak
pretend you on a sofa and I'm on MTV
Might see me on a poster, see me at a show
But you won't see me for free boy, this ain't no promo

No shame now,
Wherever you been laying, you can stay now
gotta board the BBJ and put the shades, down, I'm on the plane now
and don't keep calling from yo momma house..


when I break, I break boy
Up out my face boy (up out my face)
Up out my face boy (up out my face)
Up out my face (up out my face), I break
Up out my face boy (up out my face)
Up out my face boy (up out my face)
Up out my face (up out my face), I break

You ain't never gonna feel this thing again(un uh)
You gon' get a lot of calls, cause I CCed all your friends(laughter)
I ain't walkin' around feeling sad
That ain't even my bad baby
I break, when I break, I break(Mariaahhhh)

So look who's crying now, boo hooo hooo
Talking about you're missing your boooo
No you ain't gettin it
No you ain't hittin it
No you ain't a rapper so you need to stop spittin' it
Ah ah ha ha ha ha
You wonder who I'm messing with when you ain't next to me
Ah ah ha ha ha ha
So pay.........................

You a shame now,
Wherever you been layin, you can stay now
got to board the BBJ and put the shades down, I'm on the plane now
and don't keep callin from yo momma house
when I break, I..

[Nicki]
Stylin on them big b's
Brought the Benz out
Elevator press P for the penthouse
Hop does and we break like tacos
Roscoe's on his knees with the snot nose
They be like she next
COW-WA-SA-KI T Rex
Give him some kleenex
Match his little v-necks
Oh that's what he left
Let his mama pick it up.
My back up on it vroom vroom with the pick up truck
That blue and yellow yeah that's the Carmello jag
I bob and weave em hit em wit that Mayweather jab
I get the thumbs up like Im hailin a yellow cab(Mariaaahhhh)
My flow nuts like a monuh- in a yellow bag

MARIAHHH


And no super glue can fix this sh**
Not even a nail w/ a whole lot of gel and crylics can fix this
If we were 2 lego blocks, even the harvard university graduating
Class of 2010, couldn't put us back 2gether again
When I break boy, UP OUT MY FACE BOY.

♥

When I break, I break, I break..

"It's not chipped. We're not cracked. Ooh, we're shattered...
I was in the million $$$ meetings, he was cheating..
all up in the church he was sneaking with the Deacon,
Well when's the cats away, the mice will play.
Lol smiley face, have a nicer day :) "

I'm not selfish. I did love you, I never lied. You were that I wanted.

Cheating wasn't me & when I gave you my heart, I gave up the game.

Unfortunately, like pain n o t h i n g lasts
forever.

" To the bittersweet struggle that lasted three years & counting, farewell. "

When I break boy, up out my face boy..

This is not to get confused, this one's for you.

You take the time to perfect your explanations, your excuse.

You lie until she believes you.

It's not my fault I love you beyond compassion. So much that writing it down on paper wouldn't suffice in detail. That I, smile because I believe every last promise, every I love you. I also can't blame myself, for feeling bad for your broken heart over breaking mines. See I live through love, mind over matter - I tell myself I need you when in fact you're the last thing I should I depend on. I know right from wrong, but I do not grasp the concept of that, when it comes to love. I'm right, you're wrong. But I guess maybe when I start believing in myself I'll cease in believing you.
But then again you know, it really isn't my fault. It's a gift.

You lie so much, it's killling your swag.

I Choose You ♥

No pain is forever, YUP! You know this..

Lately, my days haven't been soo great.

But Fuck it, Cause I rather do bad all by myself :-*