Venus vs. Mars.

Hov's a Blackberry Bold. Shorty is a Sidekick.

I really want to write about you, I really really do. But I can't find the words. I know how I feel, but I can't make sense of it. Let me explain..

It's awkward, really awkward to look at you, be near you , talk to you..
and it's annoying. I never wanted that to happen. I didn't know what was going to come from this, but if anything friends* in the end. But the way the end started, contradicts that.
I'm not saying you hurt my feelings, because you didn't. I went into this not giving you the chance to control my emotions. And I'm not saying, I don't feel the same way.
But there's something I'm trying to say, that I just can't say.
I wanted you because, I really thought you were someone I could work with. And boy did you surprise me. I thought I could forget about everything, just being with you. And I was so ready to give someone up.. all for you.
What the hell was I thinking? And I wasn't.
I just wanted. And in this game, I usually always get what I want, especially if I work for it.
...

You shut me down.

She has a boyfriend.

Recently, I've chosen to give up on a waste of time.
Good.
And have decided that my throwback* is where I want to be.
Thought we fight, the cut always heals sooo good (:
And I love him, more than I love anyone in this world.
.. well, in that sense.
He's mine. I'm his.
No date, Just Love forever<3.

♥

If you're pretty & you know it, clap your hands
♥ ♥

.. Always been a Pretty Bitch ;]

Pretty Bitch<3.

Sweetbaby<3.
That right there, is my future lovely.
My dream car.
Licensed & ready, I'm coming for you..
I promise.

I want this shit forever <3.

TheCrew♥

11:11, make a wish <3.

My mind, my thoughts..
my heart, my love..
are all over the place.
I do not feel like writing,
peace.

Survey.

Hi, your name is?
slim shady.

Where do you think your number one is right now?
my #one, what?

What is the stupidest thing you've ever done?
too many to name.

Will this weekend be a good one?
yeeea?no.

Who did you last text?
tevin(:

Who'd you last talk to on the phone?
kiarrraaaa.

Who and does that last person who put their arm around you mean anything to you?
pssssh, probably? just a friend. i don't know, i don't really remember.

Are you happy with the way things are going?
naaa.

Which is more romantic: sunrise or sunset?
sunset? .. who the hell is up for sunrise.

So what do you want for your birthday?
a boyfriend to spend it with.

How's your hair looking?
fllllllllllly (:

Do you watch the Super Bowl?
if the patriots are playing, yeaa.

Where's the last place you went swimming?
a poool ?

What was the last thing you drank?
nothingg.

How many windows are open on your computer?
twoo.

Are you a morning or a night person?
night, fuck the mornings.

Can you recall the last time you liked someone a lot?
as of right now.

Do you like your family?
.. i guess. well, at least most* of the time.

Is there someone you could spend every minute with and be happy?
yess(:

Does someone like you right now ?
yess(:

Are you comfortable with your height?
yes.

When did you last talk to your number 1?
after-schoool.

When was the last time you laughed REALLY hard?
today? .. i think. idontknow man, people are just funny.

Do you make your own money?
$$$ ? me ? aha, i wish!

Would you ever get implants?
chilllll.

Have you ever passed out?
i will pass out, soon. i'm exhausted.

Have you ever had sex in a tent?
let me telll you! pffft, lmao.

How many purses do you own?
a lottttttttt.

What subject in school did you do the worst in?
geometry, but that was last year.

Have you ever had to give up on someone?
yea, but i'm right! .. back at it..
again, ugh.

If an ex said they hated you, you say?
be like, nigga you love me.

Honestly, who was the last person to tell you that they love you?
this nigga<3.

This time last year, can you remember who you liked?
didn't.

Who was the last person you went out to eat with ?
the girls, most likely.

Does it bother you when people try to make you jealous?
no, makes them look stupid.. i don't get jealous.

Ever liked someone who treated you like crap?
lmfao*

The last person you kissed, how many times have you cried in front of them?
never, ever. cried to them? now* that's a different story.

Do you plan on sleeping in tomorrow?
i wish=\

Do you have a piggy bank that's actually shaped like a pig?
? No.

Where were you 2 hours ago?
at the school.

Have you ever liked someone you didn't expect to?
yes! the person i like now, wooo.. random?

How many pillows do you sleep with?
four*

What are you wearing?
damn, freaky.
lmao.

Fair to say?

It's fair to say that my time has been well wasted on childish antic's & silly little, " haha" text messages.. so, I'm saying. I won't do it again, ever. Since I've fell in love for the very first time, one year ago, all I've been doing is running around in circles. Either with the same person, or playing the same game. It's tiring, and annoying.. and not worth it. I'm not a quitter, but in this game, I've given quitting a second thought..

* Whoops! in classsssssss right now, soo, * FinishLater.

"Pce, hahahaha."
..omfg.

When two decides to become one..

You lessen the value of another person,
that other person is usually wifey in the situation.
If you don't get this metaphor..
you will.

9/12.

Almost spent the night w/. my smiley(:
.. almost :(

Oops!

.. I forgot to say,

I don't love you anymore,
well.. I'm trying.
why? I know.. I know,
You're confused..
like I was,
But I'm not the ex you're in love with it,
so fuck it..

dotdotdot, nothing nigga.


PERIOD.
people grow. people grow apart.
like you&me.
I mean.. You. & Me.

The Blueprint III .

Hov on that new shit, Niggas like how come?
Niggas want my old shit, buy my old albums.
Niggas stuck on stupid,
I gotta keep it moving,
Niggas make the same shit, Me? I make the Blueprint.
-On to the Next one.

♥♥♥

Jay-Z. I am so, lyrically in love with you, I swear.
The Blueprint III, <3 ...aaah, chillls.
Speechless, we should call it..
Shit, Hov you can speak for me! fuck that.
...
Bottom Line: Jay-Z, Jay-Z <3.always&forever baby.






" Niggas said HOVA was over, such dummies. "
.. you haters.

Holding on.

Because I've decided that is what I want to do.
I can listen to all the advice in the world, and hear all the reasons why we shouldn't be together.
But you've always told me, to listen to my heart first, and my mind will follow, second.
I know, that I don't want to lose you..
And I know, there's a reason why you're still here.
I just need you in my life, B.
And I love everything about you, from your fucked up flaws.. and your carelessness.
I realized that you don't always really know what it is you are doing,
but you apologize after being told that you're doing it.
<3.
As long as you love me, and I love you,
Right here, I'll be.
And your honestly, my everything..
because as a person, I've grown with you
the most.


Day&Night.
Hot&Cold,
Right&Wrong,
Sunshine&Rainydays,
... Then there's, you&me.

*Within reason, I Love You.

= ` \

I really, fucking miss my damn CAMERA.
.. ugh! i was soo stupid.

Text Messages.

" Theirs only 1 reason y i love u......because no matter wut happends or fucked up,
& disrespected i be 2 u u still here"
- 9/8.

Hmm, here's another:

" 2 talk i want to start fresh wit no fights or bringing up the past thats if u want 2....cuz i do"
-9/8.

Songcry..

Has been keeping me sane since, we've stopped talking, "we." as in, me & him..
and it's been days, four to be exact.. but who's counting? .. right. So sad how we treat each other. As if this is a game, and both of our hearts are at stake.. up for grabs. You lose, & your heart breaks.. You win, same difference.. the loser will leave you anyway.

..but! you won't catch me playing that childhood game anymore,
SoICutTheBull & cutyou*..
.. Ooops! need a band-aid?
`cause it looks like your hearts bleeding.

.. salted.

Mmm, mmm , mmmmm ! So, Goooood <3 .