Dedicated..

Once upon a time
We swore not to say goodbye
Something got a hold of us
And we changed
Then you sat alone in pride
And I sat at home and cried
How'd our fairytale just end up this way..

We went round for round
Til' we knocked love out
We were laying in the ring
Not making a sound
And if that's a metaphor of you and I
Why is it so hard to say goodbye

I can't wait to hate you
Make you pain like I do
Still can't shake you off
I can't wait to break through these emotional changes
Seems like such a lost cause
I can't wait to phase you
Break you down so low there's no place left to go
I can't wait to hate you
oooh (hou, owh, owh, h.a.t.e. u.)

Ooh and this was a love phenomenon no one could explain
And I wish I could press reset and feel that feeling again
I sit and press rewind
and watch us every night
Want to pause it but I cant make it stay

We went round for round
Til' we knocked love out
We were laying in the ring
Not making a sound
And if thats a metaphor of you and I
Why is it so hard to say goodbye

I can't wait to hate you
Make you pain like I do
Still can't shake you off
I can't wait to break through these emotional changes
Seems like such a lost cause
I can't wait to phase you
Break you down so low there's no place left to go
I can't wait to hate you
oooh (hou, owh, owh, h.a.t.e. u.)

No need to call my phone
'Cos I changed my number today
And matter fact I think im moving away (away)
Sorry the frustrations got me feelin away
And I just keep having one last thing to say
And I just want to hold you, touch you, feel you
Be near you, I miss you baby baby baby (baby baby baby)
I'm tired of tryin to fake through
But there's nothing I can do
Boy I can't wait to hate you

I can't wait to hate you
Make you pain like I do
Still can't shake you off
I can't wait to break through these emotional changes
Seems like such a lost cause
I can't wait to phase you
Break you down so low there's no place left to go
I can't wait to hate you baby,

I can't wait to H.A.T.E.U.
but right now, I need you..

My 17th Fucking BIRTHDAY, ♥

..went a lil something like this,

































Prettybitches&food&cold&snow&DRAMA?!&Tears&Bullshit&girl&sleepover!&snow..&stress&love, ♥

Unofficially.

For the the first kiss that turned into infinity, a friendship that transpired into romance, the late night phone calls, the week day visits, the tears, the laughter & more.

For us, it's far from a glamorization. Because we had to work, hard & long. Struggling to keep this thing alive. Three years in the making & within all the stumbles and falls, and things that always seem to have gone wrong.. surprisingly, we're still here.

It's a metaphor for what love isn't and is all at the same time.

Slowly, we've merged into this cool, comfortable, closeness that wouldn't feel the same, if it wasn't for the struggle.

We're walking into the beat of one day, one, step at a time, slowly.. progressing.

The insanity of our love only is, we can't stand each other & yet, can't stand being without.

Truly, you are my first love, that's turning into my forever. And heart can definitely concur.


You are my bad days, good days, arguments, world, everything in between here & there, my headache, my conscience, & my life.

..all unofficially.

Dedicated to the one, & only, that I love.

Shorty's a PC.

Just chilling, you know the deal :-*

Something that I like.

I have this Model chick, who can't cook or clean. But she has style & her walk is mean.

Young Wild Hearts.

Love must mean never having to say "I love you".
It must be that feeling of reinsurance, that makes everything feel okay.
(Even if it's not.)
The hoping, the praying, because hopeless is just plain absurd.
Love must mean, sometimes you just have to let go.
But never forever,
Cause love means you'll always come back.
It's the precious space between two people that makes the heart grow fonder.
It's the missing, and the thought of never being able to let go.
That makes one love another, to a whole other level.
Love is something out of this world.
I know because I've been there..
guided by my heart.


Love has infinite definitions of what it's SUPPOSE to be,
but its the abnormality that makes original love, pure ♥



You're Everything to me,
our love has no concrete definition.
We just happen to go with the flow.

Hello, December..

So it's been a minute, so what.. With everything that has been going on, it's fairly deserved to have taken a break. But I'm glad I'm back.. I'm glad I'm writing again, because this blog is 100% about me, and how I feel. And lately, that's exactly what I've been needing ♥

Remember that 'boyfriend'? Well, he's still in my life, beautifully. Holding it down, doing his thing, & keeping my heart alive. And my friends have changed, I only have two. Two real good ones right now, & I'm mature enough to know I couldn't be happier. So, all I have, is my Pretty Bitches, & my 'Boyfriend'..

Oh and"Pretty Bitches", ... pronounced [*Birches] is a mutherfucking word & No one's sweating it by the way, because you're sweating WEBSTER, Webster's fucking DICTIONARY. Please correct me if I'm wrong, but bitches, any bitches could be a pretty fucking bitch, even if they're ugly, lmao. But calm all that 'Jocking' noise down boo, it's life.. 100% unoriginal.
But enough of you, & her..this my blog remember?

My 17th Birthday's in 22 days, call me corny but I'm counting down, & I've been doing so since, um? Novemeber 24th, fuck what you said.. it's my Birthday.

I won't cry,
not even if I wanted to.