Memories made in Summer `O9.
i Love, LOVE this picture <3.

Another Again,

So there you go, & here we are.
Situation: You breaking my heart, again. And me choking, if not drowning in my tears of frustration, metaphorically speaking of course.
Because I no longer have the strength, or the energy, or even the emotion to cry over you ONE MORE TIME. I don't really know why. There's no explanation. But I know, that I just can't. It's almost impossible to shed a tear, and believe me, because on Friday, I really, really tried..

And I don't know how I'd sound if I told you it actually worked,
that I actually cried over you, for the billionth time.
I'd probably sound stupid.

I refuse to believe that me and you couldn't of worked it out, as if it was impossible to make it work. And that's what I've been holding on to, this whole entire summer. My Hope. And even though it seems like I've been holding on to it for, forever.. this summer has made me realize I needed to hold tighter.

I'll always say, at the time we had what we wanted,
But it wasn't in the right way.
And that's why we're a mess, and will always be a mess.
Until, of course we get it right.

You told me you didn't want anyone knowing about me and you..
But, I'm sorry. I can't come to terms with that, because to me, that sounds stupid..
Amongst shady. I'm in love with you, and after allll we've been through, I'm proud of that.
So if asked, yes, you were mine. And I was yours, because remember, it was what we both wanted.

But If we ever did pick up again,
I promise you this,
they will know.
Everyone.
In their own way,
because, just because.
And one day, your name will go,
Here: ______ ♥


But your Pride. is bigger than your Heart. My nigga.
.. Bad hit.

... One.

Hallelujah !

Summer2oO9!
.. is finally, overr!
And I personally, could not be any happier.
So GOOOODBYE! To the stress, and the heartbreak,
and arguments, and the heat! And the rain.
Dammit, Goodbye to it alll.
Summer`O9, the worst* By far.
And I'm glad you're gone, because honestly, my heart couldn't take it any longer.


.. So, See `ya! .. Wouldn't wanna be `ya!
Sucker.

Amennnn!

Beauty - Dru Hill ♥

Woowie, <3.

Hypothetically Speaking.

" Damn Ma.. so i 'm saying, you got a man or something?"
..hmph "or something".

Hm, I don't know let 's seee.. I have someone who I'm starting to realize and faithfully believe is wasting my time.
But I am in love with this person, with no doubt & I honestly believe that I will love this person, for the rest of my life. I promised this person, forever & Swore on everything, not everything.. but enough. I swore that I always, always, love you because you will always, always, have my heart.

However,

Is this person my Boyfriend?
No he is not.

& At this point, he is far from. He is my biggest confusion, and biggest argument. I do not know why it is I love this person the way I do, and I cannot explain how I love this person.

But I love him.
And that's enough, to say..

I am not taken.
But My Heart is.

Oh, I love her, it 's not over, just another again ♥

Don`t need no spotlight, I don't care who `s watching..
This is something personal.

Meet me Halfway,

Meet me halfway, right at the borderline,
That's where I'm gonna wait, for you
I'll be looking out, night & day
Took my heart to the limit, and this is where I'll stay
I can't go any further then this..
I want you so bad it's my only wish.

When it comes to my heart, I swear you could get away with murder..

In my own words, UNCENSORED.

I don't use my blog to shit on people or gossip.
True story.

I use my blog for myself, just so happens, millions could view it.
I'm not gonna restrict myself to what I want to say..
Because everything that I write on here, is either how I feel.. or felt.
think or thought.
And I WANT to say it.
So I can't help it.

I'll write about love alot, because that what you do when you're in love.
I'll write about break-ups, & hurting alot, because that's what you want to do when it happens.
I won't write too much about my friends unless they know it. And even if, I wouldn't.
This isn't their blog, but if you're soo curious about them, I'll glady direct you to where you can read about them & their words.
This, however, is not the place.

Sincerely...

Imagine ..

Jayden, Xavier.

or

Kassidy, Hayden.


I'm fucking crazy.

first there were two..
EJB&JMg.
♥

& Now,
there's only one..

EBJG♥

"KE"
Written in Pen,
Soon to be permanent<3.

Puffy & Biggie Smalls ` O7-Present.

Fiance&Fiance.
♥

"Now the sun don't shine forever."

".. But as long as it's here then we might as well shine together."♥

Believe me when I say, " Ain't no shorty Like the one I got."

-No one could do it better.

Always*Forever,Shorty.

A.R.R.<3.

That's why they call them crushes, if they were easy. They'd call `em something else.

Truth.

But how could you of broken my heart, if it was never yours & already taken?
& How could you have tricked me, If you never had me?
You never had me..
It's not worth it.
Never was.
& For the time being, I though it was what I wanted.
I never really wanted it,
Blinded I mistaken you for a substitute of what I had,
But I had it,
I have mines, & you have yours..

And I'm sticking to my Good Thing♥ So you can tell your girl, that she can breathe easy.

Point Blank, period.

Hate to see ya`ll frown,
But I rather see him, smile. **

Promises, promisess.

Loy-al-ty

1.
the state or quality of being loyal; faithfulness to commitments or obligations.


♥ Promises, Promises.

You deserve to be my sunshine..

A man with a midas touch, intoxicate on the rush. His eyes see right through my soul. I surrender, self-control.

You're the one for me. I swear. I swear, I couldn't live without you. ♥
For better, or for worse.

My baby. Never thought I'd get so personal on this subject cause there's just some things I keep to myself, because I hold them so close to my heart. And this is just one of those things.

I could write about you, forever.. & you know who you are.

We're not perfect, far from. We'll always make mistakes, and do things that will sometimes hurt each others feelings, whether on purpose or intentionally. But I won't stop the love that I have for you, ever. You'll always be apart me, if you choose to believe me or not. I will always have love for, and ride for my nigga, you. Always. The things I've done to hurt you, will never go away.. it's apart of our relationship. I know it was hard on you, and alot to swallow but believe me, it has been soo hard on me to. But hopefully getting passed that will make us stronger ♥. I'll never hurt you again, especially in the way I did, I can put my life on that. Whatever we want, I know we can make it possible. My feelings for you, have never negatively changed, they've only grown soo much stronger. And that is why I can't see myself, letting us go. Someway, & somehow I want you in my life.

I Love you with every emotion in my body, & with everything in me. You just got me <3.
Forever is what I want to give you,
So what do you say?

We hurt, we loved.
We fought, we made up.
We lied, we came clean. Truly, The Best I've Ever Had ♥♥

I plead the fifth .

It's not talking shit, if it's telling the truth, Bitch.

Besides God, what the Fuck should I fear ?

And I wonder, who's loving you.

When I had you, I treated you bad & wrong my dear. And since.. sinceee you went away
Don't you know I sit around.. with my head hanging down.
And I wonder, who's loving you. - JacksonFive.**

I Make her say ...

Mmmm, Last night, this morning WHATEVER. Was really, good. " Was it really that good?" Lmfao, yess it WAS. Get your mind out of the gutter though, Lil Boy cause we ain't talking___ mhhm =) sssssh. * Kiarra (Shouttt outt ! ) called me at Like, one something and we talked `till 5am something. Shit's crazy considering I was soo ready to passs the fuck out as soon as I hit my bed. We talked about EVERYTHING under this fucking sun, from boyfriends, to throwbacks, to you hoess, & even school nigga.. SCHOOL ! In the midst, I got a surprising text from someone very fucking special & aww <3. style="font-style: italic;">I swear.
So yess BITCH, I'm glad you called me, because if it wasn't for you, I never would wrote what I wrote to him to make 'us' happen again.

-And another thing, KID CUDI'S " Make her say song." is about giving, (gulp.) HEAD!
Fact, from Kiarra & if you don't believe us, then nigga you're stupid! Sike. No, I'm playing.. but seriously though, Look it up. It's that mixed message shit. Crack !



Nevermind, I did all that research shit for you, so read this:
Kanyeeeee*
“It’s a single for Cudi,” Kanye explained. “Due to radio, the name of the song is called ‘I Make Her Say.’ When I saw that YouTube, that’s what made me fall in love with the song - when I saw her play the acoustic version. I could hear all the melody lines. On the ‘Poker Face’ single, she sings it straightforward, almost, like, ripping it or chanting it. But this [acoustic version], you hear the Broadway melodies run up and down. I was inspired by that. I wanted to sample it. I thought it was really dope - just on some hip-hop, ‘Say when I p-p-poke her face.’
“All the backstory to the song is really controversial,” he continued. “When I found out that her actual song is about her making love to her boyfriend but really thinking about her girlfriend, I was like, ‘Oh, that’s crazy.’ For us to even flip it to another level and challenge people’s opinions, that’s it.”


I’m hopin’ she a rider
When its said and done
And she spit it up and swallow - KidCudi.

$#@!%

If you happen to see something, you DON'T like..
Please don't take it personal.

-KG.

New Beginnings.

february282oo9

AugustO82OO9*

This time, I want it all. I'm showing you all the cards, giving you all my heart.
This time, I'll take the chance.. I'll be all you need, this time it's all of me.
Last time I wasn't sure, this time I'll give you more. I'm more mature, I'll show you.
Last time, I didn't know, I messed up and let you go. I need you.. Don't say no.
- John Legend.

Sssstutter, sstutter. Need I say more? Nope =)

"Damn! Enough WIllie ?!
`ahahaha, nooooope!
♥

Ain't nothing like our very first timee,

" I love my girl, love my girl..
loving the way I rock your world.
I really, really, really..
I really love you. "
♥

My ohhh , my...

Bittersweeet, This is dedicated, too ..

1) Youu..you youu. ♥
2) Your Kiss.
3)Hearing your voice, no matter what.
4)That smile you give me.
5)Your smile.
6)How crazy you maaake me , <3.
7)How you're always on my mind.
8)The feeling.
9)Your Lips.
10)Your grind..
11)How I stay up on the phone with you, until you fall asleep. *
12) How you say "I laaa you"
13) Fighting, kissing, loving, touching.
14) Your tattoo ♥
15) Your heart, black or red.
16) There's a million and one more..
17) Finish later.

See I've been the Super-Girlfriend.

-A man that can cherish this,
& Knows exactly how to wooo me.
Not some silly little boy, who wants my goodies cause he took me to the
movies.

♥
my baby `s calling me..
& I never thought I'd say that again.



Buhhhbyeee*

Pa-pa-pa-poker face. ♥.

Your's.. and Mines.


You couldn't even know the half of it.. even if I were to write a book, and act it out for you. You still wouldn't know. I could write it in the sky, or tattoo it on my body, & you wouldn't get it. I could do all the explaining in the world, with a thousand & one words.. & nope. You can't read my mind.. you can't see inside my heart, you can't feel how I exactly feel. And that's why, you won't ever really know.

And now you're talking about walking away. And it kills me to the core.
I don't want to make excuses for why you're doing what your doing. But I can't turn back the hands of time to correct the mistakes we both made. Trust me, If I could I would. But the truth remains. Such a memory.. that will never, ever go away. I wish you could get it off your heart though, so It can come off your mind. I just don't think.. you want to do what you trying to do. And that's why I'm trying soo hard to make it better. I'm not taking it as a joke, & I never did. The thought of losing you is the scariest thing I could ever imagine right now. It's hard to swallow.

But I promise you this, with soo many others. I'm soo ready & willing to do us, again.. make it work. And make it better.
But for now, we'll just have to wait & see..
Now won't we?

" Play your card, I'll call your bluff."*

Sealed with a Kiss, muuuuah* me.

And my verses getting stupider. When i break it down , when I - when I Break it down .

-Drakee. Bored as fffuck . Jesus Christ , there isn 't enough , myspaceaimfacebookoryoutube in the World to keep me entertained. There are soo many places I'd rather be.. ddamn. But am I soo glad, I found you, <3. No bulllshitt. I always want to write on here, but I never know what to say. I never what to say too much, because you never know who's reading this, right? Fuck no, Hell no , wrong. This is my shit. Sometimes Explicit, but get overrr itt , or click to the nexttt blog. But really though.. I'm lost at thought.. or maybe I have too many thoughts running through my head. Whatever the case may be, I know one thing, on one person who seems to be always on my mind, whether I like it or not. Ugh.. Can't explain the feeling he gives, so I'm not even going to sit here, put up a front, & try.. cause Believe me. I'd be bullshitting you, & myself.
Wheeeeelppp , I'm done with this one.
Bye ! Byeess .

HOV . *

I can understand why you want a divorce now
Though I can't let you know it, pride won't let me show it
Pretend to be heroic, that's just one to grow with
But deep inside a nigga so sick.

And then they got FUZZY and they don't remember that
And I don't remember you..


You don't do shit like that.
You don't just pick up and leave and leave me sick like that ,
You don't throw away what we had, just like that..
I was just fucking them ___ I was gone get right back,
They say you can't turn a bad girl good
But once a good girl's goin bad, she's gone forever..
I'll mourn forever.
Shit I gotta live with the fact I did you wrong .. forever.

- * Song Cry .


Dear SummeRR..*

Let's not stray from what I came to say
To my beloved, think we need some time away
They say if you love it, you should let it out its cage
And fuck it, if it comes back you know it's there to stay
It's tugging, at my heart, but this time apart is needed..

I'm done for now, so one for now
Possibly forever, we had fun together
But like all good things, we must come to an end
Please show the same love to my friends
Dear summer *




99PROBLEMS.*
In my rear view mirror is the mother fuckin' law
I got two choices y'all pull over the car or ..
Bounce on the double put the pedal to the floor
Now I ain't tryin' to see no highway chase with Jay.
Plus i got a few dollars i can fight the case
So I...pull over to the side of the road
I heard "Son do you know why I'm stoppin' you for?"
Cause I'm young and I'm black and my hats real low?
Do I look like a mind reader sir, I don't know
Am I under arrest or should I guess some mo'?
"Well you was doin fifty-five in a fifty-fo' "
"Liscense and registration and step out of the car"
"Are you carryin' a weapon on you I know a lot of you are"
I ain't steppin out of shit all my paper's legit
"Well, do you mind if I look round the car a little bit?"
Well my glove compartment is locked so are the trunk in the back
And I know my rights so you gon' need a warrant for that
"Aren't you sharp as a tack, you some type of lawyer or something'?"
"Or somebody important or somethin'?"
Nah, I ain't pass the bar but i know a little bit
Enough that you won't illegally search my shit
"We'll see how smart you are when the K9 come"
I got 99 problems but a bitch ain't one
Hit me.

Lost One..
When I lost you, I lost it.
So I have to give her
Free, time, even if it hurts
So breathe, mami, it's deserved
You've been put on this earth to be
All you can be, like the reserves
And me? My timing in this army, it's served
So I have to allow she, her, time to serve
The time's now for her
The time she'll mature
And maybe we, can be, we, again like we were
Finally, my time's too short to share
And to ask her now, it ain't fair
So yeah .. she lost one.

La, da da da , hey hey hey , goodbyeeeeee.